Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Simply Me.

This is how I feel since last weekend.

My Eyes:
Heavier by the day , lighter by night............ just like Sunlight

My Smile:
Wide during the day, wider during the night....... like a freeway

My Heartbeat:
Up up up, down down and again up ...just like a roller coaster.

My Sleep:
Thoughts keep me awake, I think most about sleep........ like a vicious circle

My State of Mind:
Happy , sad, happy, sad....... like an oxymoron

My Diet:
Less makes me full. more makes me hungry.................like memories.

My Car:
Broken trunk and broken bumper .................. like a pencil sharpened from both ends.

This pretty much sums me up.I don't know what the fuck is going on.

Friday, October 5, 2007

Retrospect

Dear xyz,

You r a good girl and deserve a guy much better than I am. I understand your feelings and but this cannot happen.Its not the question of different caste but temperament of two people involved in a relationship.Trust me u can find a much better guy than me.

-Chetan.

This is the snippet of email I wrote to a gal after she wrote me an email professing her love for me.The reason of this post is not to boast about how many gals like me. People who know me long enough , know that there aren't many women in this world who would find me attractive, let alone love me. :( . The reason for the this post is the chat I had with V regarding the above mentioned topic.

V did not like the way I responded to the email. My justification was that it was first time I found myself in such situation. It caught me unawares like an Australian team against Zimbabwe in T20world cup. My response to email was short and straight and I tried my best not to hurt the feelings of the women in question.

However, according to V, I ended up doing exactly that. How? According to her , it was insensitive of me to say that xyz could find a guy much better than me. Her rationale was that although true, it hurts a gal to know that the guy she has chosen tells her to look for another ( or better guy) guy instead of a plain rejection. It shows that I don't care about the fact that she has chosen me over all other guys.

I wouldn't have agreed with her during the time that email was written but in retrospect I think V is right.

Its amazing how different men and women think. Thanks V for the insight.