Hum Tum

I really thank god for re-introducing me to V. Her carefree attitude and sense of humor is something like about her most. She being hyper active bundle energy has brought some pace to my mundane desi grad student life.

Never in my life I took so much time to decide something. I saw all the signs but yet kept delaying,thinking to myself she is just another gal on my crush list. But destiny played its part and thank god for that. Lot of my friends asked me on what transpired on that fateful day. So far I haven't told anyone except S ( I had to tell someone) about it. So here is what went on that day.

On a creaky cell phone connection , nervous as hell with sweaty palms, still wondering whether its the right thing to say , finally listening to his gut and in stuttering voice ......

HE said: Something wonderful.

After a ridiculous laughter for 21 seconds and brief pause( longest in my life trust me)........

SHE said: Something even more wonderful :)


Isn't life beautiful?

Vacation in India 2

When I first came to USA. I though I would return back in 5 years. I was here to get a good education and good money. However, after juggling job and studies for 2 years and finally reaching some kind of equilibrium thought of returning back to India never crossed my mind. Why waste all the hard work and start life over?

It only took a 4 week trip to India to change my mind again. This is what your home country does to you. I am planning to go back once I have decent work experience in my line of work. I digress. This post is about my vacation in India and not about my confused state of mind.

I loved the early mornings in India. Crispy parathas and hot tea sarted the day. This was followed by some chat with dad. Sometimes about life and its principles and mostly about saving money. Most of the time dad would show me details of his bank accounts just to show me how much money he saved. He loved the fact that I listened patiently which was not the case earlier.
Yes my life in USA has taught me to be patient and calm. I was a cocky and impatient earlier, something that used to irritate my dad the most.

Once dad left for the office, I had all the time in world to spend with mom and friends. I spent entire week with mom just gossiping and finding the about everyone remotely related to the family. Again, something that I never did before. NO. before you think about it , USA has not taught me to gossip, it has rather taught me to mind my own business but it felt so good to sit with mom and listen to all she had to say even if it was just gossip.

I squealed with delight when I saw my clothes appeared magically washed and ironed in the closet. Ironing the clothes gets to my nerves. I learned not to take things granted in life.
I loved touching feet of elders every time somebody visited. I don't know why but it made me feel good. I also loved that elders used to stick a 100 rs note every time I met them.

All through the India trip, I knew its not gonna last forever. I had to enjoy every moment of it and I did.Alas! Good times don't last forever. I am back in my cubicle with loads of work and writing memoirs of India trip.

More Later.

Vacation In India

Spent the last month in India. It was amazing. I took off on 27th Oct from Los Angeles. The flight of Eva Airlines was quite comfortable.I had a 14 hrs flight to Taiwan then after a stopover of 2 hrs, I had to take 6 hrs flight to Bombay. The first 14 hrs went smoothly, saw couple of movies, got plenty of sleep. However, the last 6 hrs felt like longest of my life. I was going back home after 2.5 yrs and couldn't wait to land in Bombay.

When the flight landed, I dashed off the aircraft as soon as possible and ran towards the airport.
As soon as I entered the airport, a strong smell of phenyl welcomed me. Bombay airport has changed a lot and for better. One thing you notice when you come back to India after long time is that it has to many people. There were at least 5-6 ppl asking the passengers to queue up before immigration, plenty of ppl helping in baggage claim, hell there was even a guy pointing to ppl in the direction of the restrooms.

I was nervous abt the customs check becoz I was carrying lot of stuff with me. But everything went smoothly. V came to the airport to receive me and we took the cab. The cab did not have left and right mirrors, its trunk was half open during the ride, rear windows did not open , no seat belts and driver was driving on the wrong side of the road. F*ck.I was shit scared and I had to remind myself that I am in India.

In the afternoon, I had to make few calls to let few friends know I was in the country. I made phone calls from a PCO and when I was paying for the calls, strong smell of incense sticks ( agarbattis in Hindi) entered my nostrils. It was coming from the nearby coconut vendor who had just begun the day.Suddenly it struck me, I was HOME. Its an amazing feeling. I couldn't stop smiling the whole day.

I had to wait a while before catching the delayed domestic flight to Nagpur. Sachin came to the airport to receive me with the bouquet in his hand. I was meeting him after a long time and felt to great to see him. After another harrowing taxi ride ( this one had the seat belts in it) , I was home in 20 mins.

Everyone from the family rushed out to the front yard and wouldn't let me in for another hour.
My dad came running down the staircase with the fractured foot. It was great to see everybody. I cannot describe the way I felt at that moment.Phone calls started pouring in, everybody speaking so loudly at 11 o clock in the night, lots of happy and surprised faces.It was chaotic and yet great.

I was Home.

Simply Me.

This is how I feel since last weekend.

My Eyes:
Heavier by the day , lighter by night............ just like Sunlight

My Smile:
Wide during the day, wider during the night....... like a freeway

My Heartbeat:
Up up up, down down and again up ...just like a roller coaster.

My Sleep:
Thoughts keep me awake, I think most about sleep........ like a vicious circle

My State of Mind:
Happy , sad, happy, sad....... like an oxymoron

My Diet:
Less makes me full. more makes me hungry.................like memories.

My Car:
Broken trunk and broken bumper .................. like a pencil sharpened from both ends.

This pretty much sums me up.I don't know what the fuck is going on.

Retrospect

Dear xyz,

You r a good girl and deserve a guy much better than I am. I understand your feelings and but this cannot happen.Its not the question of different caste but temperament of two people involved in a relationship.Trust me u can find a much better guy than me.

-Chetan.

This is the snippet of email I wrote to a gal after she wrote me an email professing her love for me.The reason of this post is not to boast about how many gals like me. People who know me long enough , know that there aren't many women in this world who would find me attractive, let alone love me. :( . The reason for the this post is the chat I had with V regarding the above mentioned topic.

V did not like the way I responded to the email. My justification was that it was first time I found myself in such situation. It caught me unawares like an Australian team against Zimbabwe in T20world cup. My response to email was short and straight and I tried my best not to hurt the feelings of the women in question.

However, according to V, I ended up doing exactly that. How? According to her , it was insensitive of me to say that xyz could find a guy much better than me. Her rationale was that although true, it hurts a gal to know that the guy she has chosen tells her to look for another ( or better guy) guy instead of a plain rejection. It shows that I don't care about the fact that she has chosen me over all other guys.

I wouldn't have agreed with her during the time that email was written but in retrospect I think V is right.

Its amazing how different men and women think. Thanks V for the insight.

Interview

Well I have always had nervous anxieties before interview all the time. My confidence takes a nosedive on the eve of the interview.Well its gonna be same for this time.

What?? I did not have any interview till yesterday nor did I apply in any other company. So where the f**k this interview came from ?

Well I am the only person working on the linux module for the company. They are trying to get another person for the job so the the process can speed up. I was happy to hear that. But how the f**k was I suppose to know that they would ask me to interview the candidate. I don't see myself as experienced enough to interview another engineer. What if the person is more qualified and highly experienced ? What if he rips me apart ?

God, I need to study for interview, even if I am the one taking it. Life is kinda harsh all around.

Of crushes and all..........

I reserve few minutes everyday to read scrapbooks of some of my female friends. Before ppl judge me, I just do it to read some really funny friendship messages this gals get. Sometimes it downright hilarious. I know its must be really annoying for gals.I have read some gals cribbing about it in their blog and justifiably so [Link].

I digress. The reason for this post is not to laugh at messages written by some weirdos. I had a huge crush on one gal in college. I would try to act funny around her. Every guy has his strength some are macho, some are sport person, some are intelligent and some are rich.I was none of that so I thought being funny was my thing. ( I know thats lame :( ). I would crack jokes as soon I get around her. Couple of semester later, she perceived me as a funny guy who is never serious in life and wouldn't want to hang around me. What a shame. *sobs*.

However I was smitten by her till I came to USA ( thats one and half year after my bachelor's degree). Its during this time, I use send silly messages to her. I used to send her silly forwards and offline messages. I now equate these messages to "I want to make Friendship with you" messages.I would ask her what is she doing? Wish her best of luck repeatedly for exams. Being the nice gal that she is , she would painfully respond to all my messages. But eventually she stopped replying.Well my obsession to desperately stay in touch continued for a while and then things snapped back to normal one fine day. Last stupid message I sent her was on December 2005.Its amazing that although I am terrible with remembering dates and bday's , I always remember her bday couple of days in advance. Although now I just message her a simple "Happy birthday !!".

So even now when I sometimes see a guy trying to befriend a gal via some social networking website, it puts a smile on my face. I am not justifying them but somewhere I can connect with them. Although I would never write some stupid message to some unknown girl. ( I feel I am too old for that *sobs* ).

However, today through this blog I want to thank that gal for being so patient around idiot like me. Hope you have a great life ahead.

To you all you weirdos who want to make friendship ( I was a weirdo, not anymore :D ) , go out and seek your women instead of cowardly sending here messages via internet. It works better.

Finally did it.

Moved to blogger from yahoo 360. Yahoo 360 wasn't bad either , its just that i love blogger's simple look and feel . More later.

Fresher's Party 2007

Attended the customary Fresher's Party last Saturday.Few things that came to mind.

1>It was better organized than Independence day function.I agree that arranging the Fresher's party is much easier to organize than Independence day, becoz on I day we need to follow some protocol to maintain the decorum for the occasion.

2> The organizing team is coming together. But as it is the small event lot of responsibilities have been taken on by one person only.

3> Quality and not quantity of attendees matter for the event. Charging a small amount of fees makes sure that most of the idiots do not attend it. I was glad to see that.

4>Since most idiots were not part of the crowd , partly lasted much longer than I expected.

5>No matter how much you yell, when bunch of Indian students get together they will talk loudly and will never listen to an Indian speaker. We need some phirangi to get their attention.
Its sad.

6> Its fun to watch from sidelines, after being in thick of action for a while. Good part is you can see the subtle details that go into the preparation of an event , that most of the ppl in audience are blissfully unaware of.

7> There were couple of good dancers in freshers but sadly they did not come forward to do a fun dance number even after repeated email requests from organizers.

8>The loyalist base of organization is increasing.Plenty of people willing to come forward.

9>This might be my last Fresher's party. F***k I am getting old.

10>Aside from party, new mails coming in the groups mailing list are quite refreshing to read.

11>Lastly, I cannot tell them all this personally becoz most of the time I cannot keep a straight face and they might end up thinking that I am making fun of them.

Power to new guys( and gals , I ain't sexist) at the helm.

A few things learned this Rakshabandhan.

I was in San Jose last weekend for Rakshabandhan. I was there after 4 months. It was a good break from work and I enjoyed it quite a bit. There are few things I learned and some re-affirmed during my stay at Didi's.

1> Its truly wonderful to have a loving sister. I love my sister. Although I wish I also had a younger sister, the one I could pamper and boss around.

2>Rakshabndhan can be expensive and yet wonderful :)

3>My Jiju is a great guy.

4> Sachi gives me one more reason to go back more often.

5>Staying just for 2-3 days with my Sister sucks big time. I wish I could see her more often but I don't want to move to San Jose. Thats not gonna work out. :(

6>My sister is suspicious that I am seeing someone and would secretly check SMS's on my cell phone. She would not ask me directly though. Although most of the messages in my Inbox are sufficient to make anybody suspicious. :)

7>If you are a unmarried or single (or secretly seeing somebody that nobody knows about :) ),
married people can be real pain in the neck.

8>When it comes to marriage or getting married stuff, nobody is wrong. People of every age group will have different POV and are usually right about their line of thinking. What helps is asking your self a question about what you want to do and reason behind your line of thinking.
Self doubt is gonna take you nowhere and neither will blind following of someone's advice.

9>You can feel lonely in even in large house full of people.

10>Life is much simpler if your parents are non-vegetarian enjoys a drink once in a while. This wasn't related to my trip to San Jose but I realized this on my way back to San Diego. In an Indian culture most social interaction revolve around food. Your parent judge your friends on the basis of what they eat and relatively less judgmental of other aspects of their personality.
Vegetarian parents would hate to take part in a bday party that involves non-vegetarian food. One the other hand, all is good for non-vegetarian ppl. They would enjoy any food equally.
This also has an adverse effect if your boyfriend's/galfriend's family shares a different food culture than your's bcoz believe it or not one of the side is gonna puke.It doesn't matter if they follow different political regimes, religions,actor etc. But it really matters if they have totally food habits. :(

11>I cannot cook as well as my sister. She is an excellent cook.

12>Kids are big responsibility. Just like marriage you gotta be exactly sure of what you want to do.

13>I realized that I have become habituated of having some space of my own and dont like to be surrounded by ppl all the time. Quite a change from what I was two years ago.



Overall a good trip and I miss them. But I am gonna see then again in four days ...yay :)

Song in background:
Phoolon ka , taaron ka...sabkka kehna hai...
Ek hazaron mein meri behna hai

Horrible Movies

Bollywood movies have been quite weird off late. Even weirder is the box office record of these movies.The latest mantra it seems is "More weirder the movie, more money it makes". It amazes me that distributors even agreed to buy rights of these movies, let alone the fact that they are all super hits.

Bollywood had a bad period of business in 2004 to 2005. Continuous failing of big movies had the entire industry in shock. Some people including me hoped that economic disasters like this would force bollywood biggies to do some thinking and serve us with some better cinema. Alas, it seems to have worked other way round where audiences have gotten tired of waiting for good movies and have started enjoying the bad ones.Below is the list of few movies which according to me were out right stupid.

1> Dhoom 2: Its on top of my list of stupidest movies. Sadly majority in India seems to think otherwise. No storyline, no plot and lots of bad acting. The highlight of the movie was Hrithik Roshan. I believe the worst effected person from this junk was Uday Chopra. Poor kid was portrayed like a fool and that too in his home production.

2> Fanna: Amir Khan with a remote to the nuclear device. It can't get more hilarious than this.The movie started well. The chemistry between Amir and Kajol is great. They are great actors. Unlike the other kunal kohli movie Hum-Tum which had a great screenplay and tight script, this movie's screenplay I believe was written without any application of logic.I used to regularly watch Kunal Kohli tv show on Zee cinema in earlier years. His comments and observation about movies of those time were great and accurate. Sadly Kunal couldn't follow his own ideology. The movie was a massive hit nevertheless.

3>Guru: Mani Ratnam at his mediocre worst. I have watched Yuva umpteen times. Its still my one of the favorite movies. One of the hallmark of Mani Ratnam has been the research undergone for each character in the plot. On the other hand, in Guru lead character itself was half baked. The movie never got going, it started as hunky dory story of a youngster making big in life without actually showing struggle dhirubhai must gone through to establish such a big empire. It showed that whatever abhishek did was successful. Sadly that cannot be. Did anyone notice Abhishek and Aishwarya speaking with gujrati accent in some scenes and speaking pure hindi in others. What crap.?? Abhishek did well but it wasn't his greatest performance as some of the tabloid immediately announced.

4>Partner: If you want to make a bad copy of Hollywood movie, learn it how to do it from David Dhawan. Partner is said to be inspired from Will Smith movie HITCH. But don't expect it to be even as half good as Hitch. Salman ain't no Will Smith. Nothing except some cleverly written lines by Sanjay Chhel are worth the ticket money. And why earth should be crap like "Chotta Don" be introduced in a movie.I don't search for logic in David Dhawan's movies but if you are showing some illogical crap at least make sure its funny. If people in India find concepts like "Chotta Don" funny, then god save my beloved home land. It has been biggest hit of 2007 so far. I don't know whats wrong with people.

5> Krrish: A password locked computer cannot be unlocked even after its broken and reconstructed years later. God help India. Does Rakesh Roshan thinks everybody is an idiot?. I loved Koi mil gaya, simply for new story line and great acting by Hrithik. But what hell was Krish all about. I remember cribbing about Krissh and its supposedly great action to a friend. Being a hardcore bollywod fan he retorted by saying something like, "You can praise Matrix and not Krissh, you prejudiced against hollywood." I couldn't control my laughter. How can you even compare Matrix with Krishh. Its an insult to a great movie like Matrix. And I am prejudiced against hollywood because most of the bollywood plot lines come from old hollywood movies.Well the director of movie can argue that its was movie for Kids. If it is so, why the hell introduce a romantic angle with priyanka chopra and some stupid songs. This movie was also a super duper hit.

6> Vivah: Another unimaginative movie. Beaten to down track and hopeless romanticism enveloped with sugar coated Indian values.Add to that shoddy production values and bad music composition. Even then the over all result is not as disgusting as some of the ones mentioned above and thats because even though the story is predictable it is a good plot nevertheless unlike some of the movies mentioned above which did not have story at all.

7> Aaap ka Surror:
This movie is living proof of what a good publicity can do for a movie. It generated tremendous curiosity. Sadly not much effort was invested in story line. The movie had great production values and looked slick and stylish. Fans of himesh made sure that movie was a hit but making a sequel to it would be stupid. I cannot understand how can you make a sequel to movie which doesn't have a storyline in first place.Even then I found Himesh a decent actor and he can improve.

All of these movies were great hits.It often makes me wonder what hell is Indian audience thinking.But there have been some great movies in last couple of years like RDB and lage raho munnabhai.Enough has been said about them already and I do not need to say more.


Waiting for Sanjay Leela Bhansali's next.

Entry for July 30, 2007

Haven't been blogging these days. I usually write about something on weekends.
But last few weekends was fully occupied with swimming and racquetball. Yes, swimming,
finally after years of waiting I started to learn swimming. Wasn't bad either. I was able to complete a lap on third day itself. But I need to build the stamina big time.

Sadly though , I suck at racquetball. Will have to do something to get right amount of power behind my shots. Not too much and not little less. It just has to be right amount of power.
Will be working on it. Hope to see some improvement soon.

Going to Didi's on coming Rakshabandhan. It would be great to see her after four months.
As always I am at sea to decide what to get her for the gift. Will figure something out though.

Apart from that life going on smoothly. Lets see what August has in store for me.

Who pays for the coffee?

How many times have I missed my chances?
How many times I have missed the cues and innuendos?
How many times have I said something which was complete opposite of what I wanted to say?

These question were killing me about 2 months ago when I was finishing my last semester and was about to be kicked out from the job. Thats when decided to take more chances.

I decided that first desi gal ( still not attracted to firang gals, i dunno why) I see that evening I am gonna go for it. Well fortunately it was a cute looking gal and I had spoken to her several times before. So starting the conversation was no big deal.

Me: Hi.
Her: Hello. You seem to be busy.
Me: yeah, organizing events is a big responsibility.( I am a part of student organization committee and always use it to try and impress gals. It never works and I dunno why I say that.)

Her: So thats why you don't even return the smiles these days. I smiled and you looked the other way.
Me: I am sorry, I must have missed that. And in my defense, pretty gals throwing a smile at me is a pretty rare phenomenon. ( can't get more cheesier).
Her: You sure are a funny guy.

For the better part of rest of the evening, I kept looking at her direction and kept smiling. She caught me looking at her couple of times.By the end the day she was unnerved by my unashamed (for the lack of better word) staring.

Her: What is it gonna take for you to stop staring at me?
Me: Well I am usually very demanding but since its you I would settle for a coffee. ( I am on a roll, so many stupid lines in one day )

Her: Coffee ?? ha ha....high hopes.
Me: (Alarmed , thinking Damn ye ladki bhi gayi haath se , but I persist shamelessly) Come on, what is it gonna take for you to go out on a coffee with me? Its just plain starbuck's coffee.
( Starbucks is just outside my campus. I hate it. The thing I least hate there is chai latte I still prefer home made Nescafe over starbucks. I don't why, but gals are usually crazy about it.)

Her: How come suddenly you ask me for coffee? It has never happened before.
Me: Well everything has its first, this is definitely the first for me. So what do you say?

Her: After pretending to think for a while ( or was it real. ) Ok, sure.
Me: Its a date.

Her: Lets call it a coffee treat instead of the date, I insist.
Me: Sure. (You can call it whatever....I got myself a date he he ::) )

Her: But let's do it after a week becoz I am really busy this week.
Me: Sure anytime is good with me.

Her: And remember YOU are paying for the coffee, rite?
Me: Yeah rite.( wht the hell???)

What happened after that evening?
Well I never called her up. We never went out on a coffee date. Being a pretty gal she had many guys to keep her company, so she didn't care. But why did I back out after investing so much effort in it?

Well...I didn't like her asking me who is paying for the coffee?. It wasn't that I wouldn't have paid if date had materialized, but her asking me this question put me off some how? Did I look like jerk who would ask the gal out and wouldn't pay? I am not saying the girls should pay on dates, in fact I believe in the opposite, I believe guy should pick up the tab every time. My mantra is simple...if you are not man enough to pay, don't ask her out.

But I also don't want women expecting that dates are fun and free of cost. I would respect a gal who tries stops me from paying ( which I would anyway) her share of the tab. I told this incident to some of my friends and they didn't find anything wrong with it. Some of them instantly called me jerk and declared that I would remain single for next 25 years if I didn't stop this nitpicking behavior. I politely showed them my finger.

Anyways, the bottom line is...
I don't want women to pay on dates, I just want them to be wiling to pay.

Song in background:
Ek garam chai ki pyali ho,
koi mujhko pilane wali ho, chahe gori ya kali ho.....

( did not find any song on coffee...so had to do with Chai)

Personal Diary

While in school, I was always taught to write a diary to keep account of my activities.
It in a way helped to improve the English writing skills.

Well, I always thought that I was a good writer and that I write better than others. This belief simply sprang from the fact that others around me were simply pathetic. Anyways now I don't carry such silly notions about me anymore.

A strange incident happened few days back. When I was 17, I fell in love for the first time with some girl( wouldn't mention the name here). Offcourse the loser I am I never spoke to her and lived in my own dream world. May 2007 USA my sister calls me up and asks abt that girl. How the hell did she come up with that.? Well as it turns out, she read my diary and all the lovet dovey stuff that wrote into it. Whats even worse, is that my parents read it too.

Aaah , why can't life be simple. I hesitated to talk to my parent for couple of days but then I said to myself..wht the hell? I was a teenager and teenager's are allowed to be stupid.


yeah that was a strange thing to happen. But it was nice remember the gal after a long time. Wonder wht she is doing this days. May god bless her and god please don't let my parents find my hidden stash of porn.


Peace.

Abusive relationship.

I came across this post and would encourage you to read it.
I know a guy like this with low self esteem and full of love for a girl who doesn't seem to care.

Cupid woes

Strange title!!!!

Well life itself is strange. If u ever get into a situation where one of you guy friends starts liking one of your female friends or vice versa, try to wash your hands off it. No matter wht you do, chances are you might end up being target of somebody's ire.

Most of these crushes usually end up getting crushed by either boy or a gal and very few go on to become a full fledge relationship. Well if your friends go on to have a relationship they would attribute it to the fate rather than thank you. On the other hand, if something goes wrong they know who to blame.

Also, you might really get involved and would want to help out of your way for a non existent relationship like I did that couple of years ago.This can really offend ppl and rightly so. Why make things awkward???

Based on my previous experiences, I recently tried to help a friend of mine staying as aloof from the matter as possible. Welll that didn't end pleasantly as well. So I have stopped trying to play cupid(or should I say "stupid" ) and let ppl sort out their own love lives.


Song in background:
Ye public hai, ye sab janti hai...
Ye public hai.

Indian Coffee Hour

Feb 23rd 2007.

Like every year, we hosted a coffee hour this year too. Coffee hour included serving food too around 100 ppl and usual gaana bajana. By the end of the day I was damn tired and although sleep was only thing on mind when I came back from office, I couldn't sleep. Unable to do anything else I started looking back at time when we had our last coffee hour in 2006. A lots of things has changed since then and some hasn't. Let's try to list them here:

Similarities:
Vipul was the cook and both occasions. Food was excellent. We had a good jam session. People appreciated our efforts.

Differences:
My role had changed. I was not the one serving the food or decorating the hall. I was the playing facilitator. My job was too keep the cook happy. Get everything he needs , so that he cooks fine. As much as I understand, it was important I enjoyed my role last year and I am glad I will get back to it next year.

Kalpesh wasn't on the scene unlike last year when he was everywhere. Natasha was kicking some butt as compared to last year where she kept talking only to lily.

On the more personal note, I am not the guy I used to be . I am getting short tempered and losing control of myself. Feeling that I screwed my chances of landing a good job has been hounding me since last 3 months.

Let's not extend this lousy entry anymore. I hope to regain my normal self in coming months.

-Chetan

A place called India....

Since past of couple of days, I have been calling India every 12 hours. Reason - Didi and Jiju alongwith with darling Sachi are in Nagpur with my parents and I am missing out on all the fun.

When I flew to USA, I knew I would see less of my family.But I was also pretty sure that when I would be on vacation I would definitely have a rocking time. Little did I realize that how difficult it would be to get everyone together ? When I will be with my sister chances are that Mom and Dad may be missing and vice versa. Thus, I would rejoice in company of one and keep missing other at the same time.

Another difficult part would be get all the old friends together. I am sure that they love me enough to atleast visit me once when I go to India but with every one's busy schedule it would be difficult to get everybody together. What fun is party without the whole group :(

So much price for Dollars !!!!!!

Song in the Background:
Yeh jo Des hai tera, Swades hai tera.....Tujhe hai PUKARA !!!!!!!!!!

Marriage

Jan 23rd 2007 ......

Two of my friends got married. Five others got engaged in same week. Its suddenly a marriage season. Being in same age group, I am expected to follow suit. Am I ready for this ?

My first reaction is a big NO. After looking at my friends and putting a some thought , it changes to MAY BE, when i think of one thing that would make my parents most happiest, the answer changes to a big YES.

Confusing ...ain't it.

Things become easier when I change the question, instead "Am I ready for this?", it makes more sense for me to ask "Do I really want to get married?" . Nooooooo........pat comes reply.

I am relieved.

I dont know whether I am right or wrong, in oppossing all my family for not getting me married
( strange huh !!!), all I know is they can't see marriage at the wrong time can mar age.

Entry for January 19, 2007

Gosh!!....
I can't believe haven't blog gedsince last 8 months.
Too many things were happeining around me and I just got tied up....

Fall 2006 was one hell of the period in my life.It was one of those rare
periods in my life where I got pushed to very limit.It hit hard on my major weakness,
SLEEP. Barely sleeping four hours in a day made my life miserable. As a result,
my work and my studies both suffered a great deal.I am glad I scrapped through it.

Well, it was all compensated by mom's visit to USA. Well I was never so happy to
pay my bills as when I was shopping with her.Look of satisfaction on her face made
my day.

Well I am surely gonna miss her when she is gone by the end of the month.